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| I'm missing time to go get my hair cut all while I'm missing the times she had my heart struck.
I'm missing each and every payday, still im missing everyday our minds ran away.
I'm missing the moments i sleep in bed late, and I'm missing all the things we accumulate.
Every Day I miss doing what i love, what i miss most is being with my true love....
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| Today I'm done living in the past and moving on to the future and whats ahead. My last post duces ^_^ it was fun. | | |
| Today it really hit me hard. I got so bored i went back on my old profiles. Haha when i checked I notice i had pages from other sites beside myspace or facebook. Looking there i seen pics and faces of those i use to talk to alot. I cant help but laugh and sigh. I lived soo much of my life through the computer at times i just dont know any more. Haha i mean damn i fell in love with girls i know i could never get. Strange huh. But how would i be if i didnt meet em. Where would i stand. I would i be stronger or would i just fall off. At least i learned how to conversate with women haha. I wonder if they ever think about me. Some deleted their pages while others moved on. It seems like you meet a person only for a breif moment and poof they are no longer there. Tyler Perry was right in his movies. You are a Tree and the people that you meet are the leaves and roots. Like most people you meet they bloom and they go away. While others are just like your roots. They hold you down no matter what and when you cut them you lose balance. Do you think we cut our roots or not? Hmmm | | |
| I wonder do you ever see life the way i see it. Do you see the changes that i see everyday. I was raised a church country boy. Taught with manner and all that good stuff. But when Im nice people say im soft. When i care for someone people say im soft. I wonder what they see because what i see is no one is really caring anymore. It seems like all i do is give. Sadly nothing in return haha. I wonder if i start seeing from their eyes maybe life will be easy. Question that is constantly being asked why do nice people finish slow. You have that nice as your title your a instant tool to be used or run over. If i be a hard ass then respect will come and sadly love. Is nice really a word that died. When I'm nice do you see that I'm being real or do you think I'm just a joke to get what I want. Or maybe if you could see life through my eyes then haha you might have a horror dream when you sleep. I once asked this question that came from a song. Ill ask it again Why am i dying to live if im just living to die, what am i trying to see if there is nothing in sight, what am i tryiing to give if no one gives me a try. Questions that repeatly being asked in every different form. We all know the answer yet we still ask these questions in another form because we dont get the answer that we want. Hmm what if you did see what i see would life change or would it continue. I rather live life like and asshole and i rather not live life through people who lives through other people because they fear to live their own way. I just rather live life happy. But its hard to defind what happy is now and days. We become millionares and still cause suicide. I know for damn sure ill be happy if i was but would that really make me happy. Or is livng life through your eyes makes my life happy? Blaah who knows | | |
| Got lost again now i clear my thoughts again, its a cold world were in. People always ask me where you been. I reply back to sin. Its kind of hard to deal with lonelyness but its the i always lived so why is it effecting me. Goals are planned out steps in process. Yets focus is lost. Caught up in the worlds pleasure why is it effecting me. Idk imma leave it alone. I wonder if I get the girl of dreams will i still be out in the streets. I dont wonna live a life unhappy and i dont want marriage so untrue. But i guess this is the problem that eveyone face once in life time it runs through minds, but why is it so hard to find? Why it takes so long to find? I think the problem lies in me because idk what makes me happy anymore. Stuck is how i would say it. They say the only time you have opstacles in your life is when you loose sight of your goal. You know somehow it hit me right then and there it hit me. Everything in front of me but i was just to blind to see. How many times has that phrase been used? I guess too many. I think that quote is true we really loose sight and things just happen. Its staying true and strong that keep it going. Funny how my days get better when i dont complain. I always be amaze when i say it. Its so much truth in it. I been stuck for a while now kinda of hating on the world for a while now. Blame everyone for things around me not know it was my negative creating all the bad things around me. Lets when I stay positive no matter what works out yeah ill do that. | | |
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